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Thursday, March 29, 2007

shit....Big shit.i have just submitted the scheduled call spreadsheet to Mindwave Global...only this time..it includes other vendors too...

haiyaaaa/..................

i dun care....if im being sacked...so be it..nyehehehehe..

Note to myself : This Job...is too Chalenging for me..and I dun like it.ohh..i hate it to be precise.haha

ok bye.

{♥} 7:25 AM{♥}

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

today wasnt dat bad i guess..i was doing planning to send out our engineers for tomoro.
its not easy la ok to be a planner...but im trying my best here....
and today..was ok...and i mean..a personal achievement...

im a coordinator..and a planner..and its a challenging job for me..but i wish i can pull through..

Oo pls Allah...help me pull through.. *doa*

actualli im blessed to have helpful colleagues who are even though busy and under the same or shud i say greater pressure...willing to help me and give comments on the work i did..i appreciate it so much Lily chan and Maida (even though they mite not read this)!!

i received msg-es from syah , halimah and also Lily and others..encouragements.yes peeps..i need encouragement...
syah..yes i guess, i have to be thankful that I was given a chance by god to be able to take up this position..i know its not an easy position that anybody can just fill in..
i will learn to love the job.. (umm...love?i dun tink so...but shall go easy on it...)

came home earli today....yippeee...i can watch tv..

i was bored..so i asked my team leader.. "when can we get out from this DELL project hor?"
answer from my leader,"until DELL dun want to work with us animore la."
hahahaa..if the director of the company hear this...im gonna be in his office or perhaps...sacked.wakakaka

shit..i hate DELL.

{♥} 7:18 AM{♥}

Sunday, March 25, 2007

i think im in love with fairul....hehehehehehehhehehehehehe....

and tomoro is monday....
huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu.....i want my saturday and sunday.....!!

{♥} 6:51 AM{♥}

Saturday, March 24, 2007

ive been doing some research on the net regarding how to love the job u've got..
well.....now i realise that most of the people in the world doesnt realli like the job that they had..but the got no choice i guess..
waakakakakka

ok now..im starting to feel regret cos ive voiced out to Ruchira that i wanna quit..
fish fish fish....................................................................

haha..
and im soo hepi today..cos fairul datang umah...
served him nasi lemak..and fried for him his favourite ayam goreng..hehehe..
made tea which were bought from Turkey for him..and he seems to like it..

he borrowed my laptop....

{♥} 3:41 AM{♥}

Friday, March 23, 2007

hanis was begging me just now....she pleaded that i be strong..becos...if i were to resign..she will follow my footsteps..
and we promised each other..that we will work together..and support each other..becos we are still new...well, she's much more of a 'green horn' than me...haha
so she pleaded that I be stronng and dont quit..and i pleaded and beg myself everyday to stay strong and give myself a chance...becos im still in a learning process...

i talked to Anne Tan just now on the phone...tsk tsk...i seek for her advice..yes, Anne Tan was my facilitator in RP..haha..
she advised me to stay strong..because i am still in a learning process..and i have to think of the future..all the possibilities..and blablablabla..i appreciate it so much.

and i shud be thankful that ive found a good job..even if its under pressure...the pay is good..and i dun have to wait long long to find a job...

but working under pressure everyday...wahlauuuu..im not that strong la..

I am soorri people..if nak ajak kelua....make it on weekends pleaseeee...hehehehehehe..

NOreen..nanti gi geylang jom..
Mar and mil...nanti kite jumpe april..
anek..aku da lame tak nmpak batang idung and pantat kau...

and most of all..
my baby...
i havent go walk walk with u like we used to do for the past 6 years animore yet...tsk tsk...

I love u fairul.so much. k dahh! better stop mushy.yucks.

{♥} 7:46 AM{♥}

rahhhhhh~~
TGIF-thank god its friday..
i am so weak..haiya..and and and...ive become a bit sensitive semenjak dua menjak keje..
i feel like crying wehn i did mistake..i feel like crying wehn its so hard to think...i feel like crying wehn i saw that its 8pm, and im still in the office with my colleagues....
tsk tsk..

aniwae...
today consider earli la sia off work..and i feel like crying..wehn i came home and there's no food left for me..mum's not cooking today.. :( *see la..since when ni im emotional*

wakaka..
well, on monday..i was stoped by the security guard at keppel towers...cos,i was wearing too casual..and he stopped me .."Miss, are u working here?"
i said,"ya..i work here"
he said,"pls show me ur pass"..

wtH la...just becos i didnt wear office attire..makes me a visitor hor??
the coordinators are always in simple dress,so no point we wearing too formal..wakakaka...

today is friday...
and i feel like shouting to the whole world "THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY"

{♥} 7:27 AM{♥}

Friday, March 16, 2007

straits Kitchen @ Hyatt Hotel

helo peeps..finally today is saturday..yeahoo..

and yesterday nite was a lomantic (spells r-o-m-a-n-t-i-c) dinner cum buffet with fairul..

off work early today around 8pm...and fairul went to fetch me at the office(keppel towers)..

so, went to Straits Kitchen..to celebrate my belated berfday..heehee..

at last, we had time to buffet there..cos both of us are busy these days...

im a hepi lady..becos i get to dine with him, and its romantic. and he's a hepi man..becos he gets to grab 2 plates of the sweet and sour crab (duh!)... he ate the crab like he was at the coffeshop... haha...i told him "eat the crab betul2 la..ingat kat kedai kopi ke?" and he was like saying .. " yang..org kaya pun makan pakai tangan tau"... arghh..hahhaa...pantat!

aniwae..i didnt care much cos after that he left me to go pangsai (as in buang air besar) at the toilet..haha..continued eating..and enjoying the food..and he later came and joined me..

and its then my turn to the toilet..

after that..we continued eating..and paid the bills..and walk away...

and jalan2 at orchard..keekee...

and we were calculating our pay.actualli..we were calculating my pay..and I am ALL SMILES...(yes yes yes!!!!!!)

love u fairul *hugs*

{♥} 5:11 PM{♥}

Thursday, March 15, 2007

its not that tiring..but its ok.i am trying hard not to trouble people..
aniwae..i cried like crazy yesterday at work..and i mean...LIkeee crazy..haiyaa..
broke the record oredi..tsk..i havent been crying like dat for a looooonngggg time..

aniwae..the colleagues and boss quickly asked me to leave the place..and have lunch..so that i can ease my mind..and De-stress..
how can i de-stress, when i am angry at myself...for cant remembering..the too many procedures..the too many ways..and steps..or maybe im just too blur.

so went out to lunch with lily..and talked for almost 3.30 like dat...aniwae..the boss was ok with it..cos, afterall, they were just praying hard that I dun give up and left the company..haha..
hoi..i cant leave yet..cos im in the contract..and im new..and I just need money to get my plan with fairul this year..and the most important thing..i need money to fund my later studies at SIM.i need that.

and and and....

I am very proud of my abg..cos he finally enrolled in the part time diploma at Singapore polytechnic..
i've always love the idea holistic education..good job bro!
U can do it..!

I want to go KL with noreen this april...but mum gave no response le when i asked her..shit shit shit!!Noreen!!! HOW ni?!!! tsk tskk.

{♥} 8:10 AM{♥}

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC GRADUATION CEREMONY~

I would like to congratulate all my RP mates..my classmates..and u RP people who read my blog without me knowing(nyehehehe)..
congratulations people!!! yes..we've made it..we graduated graciously from RP..
actualli..i appreciate this ceremony more than republic poly's dinner and dance nite..haha..i dun know la..kekeke
sadly..i didnt bring camera..so..menumpang je la kamera org..thank you org2 yg tumpangkan aku kamera..kekekeke....

aniwae..here are some pixxies...

an end to my poly life...and im moving to the next chapter of my life..

{♥} 7:24 AM{♥}

Monday, March 12, 2007

I was shaking..and trembling since 10 am just now..i had to do plan scheduling..to send our company's outsource engineers from different vendors out to customers location..arghh..

we are controlling the engineers..so even though they are engineers..we have higher force...and more power than them.my team..we control them..so dont play play hor.

the palm was all sweaty..and im not in a good spirit today...
i nearly broke down to tears in front of the computer..nearly broke down in the office..but i chose not to, cos i've given my promise to elaine(my supervisor) during the time she interviewed me..i said "I will not shed a tear ..never"....

so i was quiet all the wayy..until elaine sat beside me around 2pm..and pat my back..and said "salbiah..u ok or not..."
i replied..."im not ok.." and kept quiet...
she's worried about me...

and at 4pm..she called out a meeting for me to express what i feel..
she dont want me to quit..cos if i quit..they are short of manpower....and its a nightmare for company's to be short of manpower..haha.

in a short and sweet description..i was counselled just now..haiiyyya...

ok..those of u...out there baru nak berjinak2 job hunting..well, its not a bed of roses....
clinching and nailing that serious job..is not just like another of ur part time..or temporary job...
face it...its challenging for me...and u will not be excluded ok.

but elaine said...I will pull through..and i must benchmark myself..for two months..and i shud be ok by then..
im keeping my fingers cross..

and im smiling wide..when i think of april...my first sweettttt salary. and im talking to aman rite now..my future AIA financial planner..i must start sumwhere..

{♥} 9:40 AM{♥}

Ancien ADius..was a well spent evening..met Rp mates there..hehe...

did some make up for ayu and anek..

and kiki and arie made a surrprise visit to my home while i was doing the make up for ayu and anek..

brought a yummy-licious mango cake..and prezziee!!it was a handbag..and wedges..AWWW...these idiotic frenss..they just knew im a shoe freakss..so they gave me a pair of wedges..wohooo..im over the moon.................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Instant remedy ... Shoesssssssssssssssssss!!

so arrived at RP...ard 6 45pm...and met fairul..haiss..si tua ni..just so irresistable la...
anek and ayu...they're pretty rite... but abby cantik ke tak?

im so attracted to him ...i like the way he dress that nite..heehee..

som felt that the performance was a tad too boring..so we decided to watch 300 at West mall..trying to catch the 11 45pm show..but oh well...there's 4 seats on the front row..and we certainly dun wanna strain our neck..so we decided to have supper at al-amin..

keke.......

was safely at home around 12 30am...and cik amnah..as in my MUm la...waiting for me outside...haiya!! irritating la.grrrrr..me no small kid animore la maakk!!!

{♥} 9:04 AM{♥}

Friday, March 09, 2007

Noreen was telling me in the smsess..."welcome to the working life"...hell yeah..its a freaking disaster..especially when u got to do the on-the-job-training...and i mean MASSIVE and INTENSIVE training..all at one go.

Unisys is in a project with DELL and LeXMARK..
and oh shitty shit...learning all about the procedures of DELL je da enough to make me go crazy..and mind you,i havent even start touching Lexmark..
colleagues had been helpful..and a lot of crazy people there..but sumtimes..im just scared of troubling them with my endless questions....
and its hard for me to learn how to schedule planning...but im trying my best ni.. :(

im trying hard not to make any mistakes here..even though newbies are bound to make mistakes and menyusahkan the others..hehe.

i gotta change my mindset..its no more a happy happy lepak lepak life like my poly life..

you want the money..you work hard for it....
(of cos i can whine a bit la kan.)

Noreen.. im shocked...but its not my right to stop u...

{♥} 8:29 PM{♥}

Thursday, March 08, 2007

had a good chat with an old fren..and i miss u...my siti maryam mohd shariff..hehehehehehhehehe....

oh..i gotta mention this again..this is the beginning of the 'NO LIFE' chapter..
:(
i dun like la going home late..but wat to dooo .........
aniwae...
tomoro will be something new to learn..cos one of the engineers will come and teach me to do planning and scheduling for the engineers at Unisys.....

noreen..jom gi KL.

{♥} 8:01 AM{♥}

Monday, March 05, 2007

its a beginning of a 'no life' for me i guess..
came home at ard 11pm..cos there's piles of work in the office..and i just cant bear to leave my two colleague there..( anyway..i figured out the OT claim is sangat sangat berbaloi...!!!hehehe)

learned a lot from them..and nearly cos trouble for my colleague..nyeehehe...new mah..bound to make mistake...today abit kecoh la..
the big boss coming in..and bising2 at my boss...wtf..haha..aniwae..i just keep quiet je.do my own work.
had lunch in front of that Dell LCD monitor..last week..asked elaine to buy for me a packet of milo..shud be enuff la hor.haha.

saw burger king on the way to work..haiss..if onli i can find a perfect timing to rush to the BK anytime i want..

Unisys just had a major renovation...and the pantry is as besar as my hall rumah.. keke..

Lily brought in for me a cold 7-up..i dun usualli take gassy drink..but today..maybe brain too tired..so need a little boost up...

Im still hoping there's slots and time for me at SIM. haisss...i dun want to stop learning.i wan that degree..even if im 60 year old.

And i miss fairul so much.

{♥} 7:47 AM{♥}

Saturday, March 03, 2007

I must learn how to put priorities in life..
i want that..i want this...i want those...all at the same time...and often its not possible..
but one thing i prioritize for now is....
to shop once i get hold of my first gaji...wakakakka..that will be my first hard earned money from my working life..and i dun refer to all those past part time jobs that i had.

Im still learning what to do in working life..and not to ever trouble my colleagues...
therefore, i asked maida (next desk colleague) every now and then since i've too many doubt..stil new mah..so..lots and lots of thing still unsure...

I love fairul..bahhh

{♥} 6:36 AM{♥}