** If I am not Meant to live with you** tell me now than Im wasTing my**Lifetime on You

Friday, July 28, 2006

This is soo unbelievable.."they" made their way to BErita Harian sia....Haha...
oh my gosh...

120,000 for a wedding...wakaka...is this a joke...aniwae....they are known to be the "glamourous" couple on earth la...haha

--> for more info...please ask mepersonally. <--

{♥} 4:15 AM{♥}

i dunno if i shud be happy or watsoever..its becos fyp is finally over.
and the submission will be on monday. Submission is before 5pm..and late submission will not be entertained..

I've replied for the interview to go to thailand..but the person in charge still havent respond yet..maybe too busy.well,its ok.I shall wait.if its my luck to go..i will go. well,that's beside the point!

sumtimes i can avoid asking ..why do i want to migrate and look for opportunity outside singapore...when I love my country soo much.. And felt proud to be in this land. Maybe i am too bored with the rat-race life here..or isit too stressful living here?
constantly...in our mind...time is money..every thing is money...

I dun have the definite answer...but i am willing to risk leaving everything in singapore..just to grab the chance to work overseas...will that cum true? I dunno...I dun haf the answer...

and I want to bring mum and wakyong along....so they can relax..
will that cum true..? i dun mind not getting married.... what is sex..when I can have money....but will that make me a happy person?
how to define happiness?
How to make life less miserable without a soulmate?
I dun see why I cant survive without a soulmate.

its time to ponder again and again....
now that FYP is fading awayy...i have all my time to think about all these questions....
hee``

{♥} 4:05 AM{♥}

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

its been a lonng time since i update this blog..
i know i know...its all up and nice....but yet...delayed updates...boring rite.

actually,im too caught up with this whole FYP thingy...i dun even haf a spare time for myself..let alone sleeping early and get my beauty sleep for the month of july...soo tiring,soo exhausting..i cant take it no more....but i dun haf a choice....
I still haf to endure...because the fact is,I nid all this grades to pass and graduate insyallah nex year....

Its less sms-es for fairul...probably because I spent most of the time at home doing programming (again to be reminded that I dun realy favour programming..)and wen I went to sleep at 1-2 am...the fingers were juz tired to compose a message..
Nevertheless, i did la msg him.....pity him ok..keke...

besides that, i am forced by myself not to msg him frequently and called him...cos...bills are shooting up..and....'THIS IS EMBARRASING'...--> i still haf outstanding bills for my hp. DUHH..

sumtimes...being emotional...I just blamed him..cos these bills shoot up because of him...if he's in singapore..i wudnt haf to spend hundreds paying the bill...
but...again, to blame him solely is just unfair...so in the end...i blame myself...cos, I AM THE ONE WHO DOESNT KNOW HOW TO CONTROL ....

ok ok...i know..im in the wrong.haha.

Tomoro is module selection period for next semester...another one big chunk of step to graduation..another 6 mths more.....ive decided on what to choose for my modules...and definitely,i will choose, Business and cyber law...and sales management,,,

and ooooHHh....definetely, NOT BUSINESS FINANCE...financial thingy suckssss...and i cant even score a B for my current financial accounting module sia!!wth rite..i suck big time..i know...

aniwae...its a great workout at the gym today..i loikee.!!cant wait for nex week.

{♥} 6:47 AM{♥}

Monday, July 17, 2006

went to causway point fer a while juz now...intended to buy bangles for myself...juz sum accesories...keke..

but changed my mine..even though dat bangle looks nice and cheap...and i moved on to the next shop...Tian Poh Jewellery.......looked and stared at those diamond ring...haiss...wen lah my fingers gonna wear it.... called fairul immediately..and told him the price for the ring.....for "the agenda" coming up before end of this year i guess.hehehe..*biarlah rahsia*

Today is the day siti nurhaliza announced Datuk khalid will be her soulmate...bloody F&^$@#$..hahahaha....no la....i juz cant help it....i realli mengharap that she's gonna end up with fazley...but end up...she chose Datuk K.....
this datuk K..haiss....muke menjeng menjeng gitu..menyampah..haha..aniwae,ape bole buat...that's siti nurhaliza choice..

and there's a poll at TV3...haha..u can sms ur answer...the question goes like dis "ADAKAH SITI NURHALIZA MEMBUAT PILIHAN YG TEPAT" a)YA b)Tidak

mcm siol kan...hahahha

so peeps.....lets wait for 3 reception in AUgust... siti nurhaliza is getting married..haha.....1st reception : MAJLIS AKAD NIKAH @mesjid 2nd: KLCC -for tetamu terhormat jek 3rd : kuala lipis utk peminat..hahahaha.....gemilang giler...jgn jadi mcm erra and yusry suah..semoga berbahagia ke anak cucu ye.

{♥} 5:30 AM{♥}

Friday, July 14, 2006

ok...this is my second post...because,while i was blogging a few minutes ago, one of the office staff came,so i had to close all the browser instantly..ppftttttt~!!

haiss...
Im easily tired these few days...and its more of mentally tired than physically.Im tired...exhausted..blablabla...
Truthfully,I dun wan to be in the office rite now...I want to be at home...doing house chores...clean it up like nobody business and juz lie on the bed...

I get irritated easily nowdays.....but controlling any anger that mite burst anytime...I dun like to hurt people..verbally.. im scared of hurting people verbally...but as far as i know,im still a human which is = NOt-PurrfEct.
All along my life, I've tried not to pick up fights or arguments but rather keep it in the heart...all pushing it to the corner of it,so that it wont be seen clearly...and be forgotten.

I am a happy person afterall, because I realised that there's always that sumbody whu loves me,adores me...and wants to make me his wife....(when? dun ask me..cos its jusz not the right time yet)
I just hope and doa' to Allah that the feeling will stay this way.....cos,he's juz too good for me..

I love u fairul

{♥} 4:33 AM{♥}

Thursday, July 13, 2006

I havent been getting a good and peaceful sleep lately..
i didnt asked for all this the first very first day I set my intention to go and pursue my dip. at polytechnic.
I didnt envision the 'challenging' part in studying but more of dreaming that its gonna be a 'honeymoon' for me.
Ya...it was a 'honeymoon' during first and second year....everything was a breeze...weeee~ hepi...enjoyed here and there.........
but things changed when I stepped to third year..
feels like every minute staring at blank space is a waste of the precious time...
Something I just cant handle easily....

There's FYP...Daily classes..UT...all happening at the same time...

I cant remember if I've dreamt of anything nice these few weeks..
I just want to complete everything ..and pamper myself for a holiday..before another project coming next semester....die die..

{♥} 11:52 PM{♥}

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Today was another plain sunday....except my anak sedara wedding..i repeat one more time...my anak sedara.
She's 20...and she's married..wakaka...and me and kak indah..? wakaka..
aniwae...my anak sedara is my abang tiri daughter...
yeah...i have adik beradik tiri..keke..

its been a long time since i last saw my 2 bros and sis (my late father's children la)....hehe...Abg Nasir and Kak ros..is a chatterbox...just like my kak indah la...
but Abg bahar (which is the bride fathers --which is also my abg--which is eventualli my late father's son with his divorcee) is more of a quiet person...

My mum was saying on our way home.....how gemok my abg nasir is...and kak indah (the act intelligent 24 hours) said " Tengok lar sape bapak dorang.."

onli to realised a few seconds later that...THEIR FATHER IS OUR FATHER.... *roll eyes*
stoopid rite? wakakaka.......

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My mum veri notti la...i asked her to wake me up for yesterday's match (Por-Germany)....
and she jolly well forgets it se....purposely ....

talking about my mum...haha....lately...she's been saying... "Bile nak 'game' ni kau dengan Fairul?"
*Gasp*
Told fairul what mum said...and at first..he's quite reluctant to accept that my 60 year old mum said that..

and i said to him...Hello...like u dunno ur bakal mak mertua...she veri rocker wat...haha..
mum says word like "muke jgn step"... "aku boring dgn kau.." ..."can u shut up?".. "aku fed up tau dgn kau"..."bile nak 'game' ni kau dgn fairul ?"... "fairul datang...nanti mak nak tanye dia..aku nak 'shoot' dia " ...and she understand the words like "busted" "backstab" and blabla...HAHAHAHAHAHA........

and she speaks english.... *thank god*
but usualli when she nagss..its in malay.. *roll eyes*

hais...dats my typical makcik at kantin...... *shake heads*

{♥} 7:24 AM{♥}

Friday, July 07, 2006

its getting crazier than I tot it wud be...
My Final Year Project is killing me......
Everybody rushing to finish the project before deadline... ~faint~

Haiss...~ I wonder why I alway wonder and think about money..?

Did i love the crispy sound of money when it's crumpled

isit the smell of all the dollar notes...?

I dunno lar...but quite materialistic I must say...Haha...watever...

Watched Superman Returns with fairul juz now...i was all excited the first 15 mins....

and
and
and.......

after halfway through.......i decided that I dun reali understand why in the world there's all those big big stuffs merging from the bottom of the sea and BBOOOOMMM....creating havoc to the city of new york..
and ..

guess what lar.as usuall....my habit....

Sleep je in the cinema beside fairul...hehehe.....and he shud know me lar...no point forcing me to watch wat...haha...so he watched alone in the end...with the rest of the audience,i guess.haha...

haiss...wasting money i know....but nevermind....as long i can be beside him...

before i end today's post..fairul wore a torn clothes to meet me sia today........nonsense kan?and he onli knew that the back(right at the end of his shirt) was torn when I laughed like a witch and took a picture of it in my hp...hahahahahahaha....so cute la he...geram..!!

He's perfect for my type.....keke...very very funni and lame guy..ouhz not forgetting....patient and lovable and blablablabla...(u wudnt wanna hear about it la..)

{♥} 5:54 AM{♥}

Sunday, July 02, 2006

i dunno what im feeling tonite...maybe..tonite's an emotional nite...tonite's the nite to think about what people might say about me...
hey...we dunno what people might talked behind our back...and I dun think im excluded...even superstars like Siti Nurhaliza kene bombard and talked behind her back...or well..just straight to the "public book" like newspapers and magazines...and me?? Im no superstar..haha..which makes me fall into the category too....

Im a heck-care type of person usually..but sumtimes...cant help having the "guilt-conscious" everytime...

Dunno why..and dunno how..

Im sooo hepi to watch Brazil being defeated at 3 am match.Ronaldo was not performing well...and Ronaldhino seemed like he wanted to play alone..haha
And why suddenly I adore Zinedine Zidane (shud be correct lar my spelling..)..he soo terrer lar..haiss...
aniwae..sadly,its going to be his last world cup this year...LEts hope for the best in the semifinals..cant wait cant wait..

{♥} 6:13 AM{♥}

Saturday, July 01, 2006

A reply to Nad's Blog...hehe

7 random facts:

1- I hate being penniless...
2- I am a pessimist at times
3- I cant stop thinking about money
4- Very particular about my image and how I represent myself.
5- Irregular menses..(haha!!)
6- Im not the type who easily gets angry..(but dun try me..!)
7- I eat Jamu since im in secondary skool.(utk kesihatan luaran dan dalaman.I believe in traditional beauty products.)

7 things that scare me:
1-Speeding...I have phobia with people who drives their car laju2..(u wil understand if u see how scared i am)
2- Thinking if I will get a poor husband
3- when I am being rejected (so far..i've never been rejected my hole life..alhamdulilah)
4- Thunders and lightnings
5- penniless (Ya allah...feels soo disabled without money..!!sumpahh!!!)
6- scar on my face.
7- Alarm system...

7 random music at the moment:
1-More than Words;Frankie J
2-Biarlah Rahsia;siti nurhaliza
3-the trouble with love is;kelly clarkson
4-pudar, rossa
5-teman tapi mesra;ratu
6-Habib hayaty;Mustafa amar (dis one,sumbody from mesir gave me last time..haiss...)
7-Stick with u;pcd

7 things i like the most:
1- MONEYYYYY$$$$$$
2- Shoes
3- Handbags
4- Escada perfume (Busyuk bought for me..)
5- Innocent looking guys..
6-Pastel colour tudungs
7-My laptop

7 things i say most:
1- Haiss
2- wth
3- Apa seh.
4- tak tau?
5- eh?
6- Shit!
7- syuk syuk!!!

{♥} 7:46 AM{♥}

-Life.Is.Not.So.Simple-

Yes...Life is not so simple...I believed that u people out there will agree to this.
Its amazing to see what life do to us...humans...
One moment...we'll be out having fun...full of laughter...sweetness all around...and the other time...just sorrows..heart-wrenching...heart-breaking..tearful...

Yeah...sumtimes,we feel that it's juz not fair...to whatever bad things that happened to us...without realising...there's hikmah behind all incidents that happen....we blame whatever...whoever...and anything around us..

This is human nature, we cant avoid..afterall,we are never perfect..there's flaws in all of us...no matter how popular u are..how beautiful u are...how bright u are...

something to ponder??

{♥} 7:33 AM{♥}