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Thursday, June 29, 2006

its been very tiring lately...and i juz feel very hopeless without the $$$$$ in my walllettt....
staring at that $2 residing in my wallet just kills me se!
haiss..

im waiting for my allowance...but it seems like forever lar..mak like cannot read my reaction that I am in a penniless-mode.

I cant wait to meet busyuk tonite....yesssa~!!

{♥} 10:53 PM{♥}

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

FYP (final year project) is killing me se!!!!!!!
Arghhh~ I dun realli like programming.....but do i haf a choiceee???~ N-O!

aniwae...alhamdulilahhhh se....2 sleepless night...and alhamdulilahhhh.....I managed to do it..!! so hepi..called anek....now i can proceed to the nex stage..hehehe.....

I've finish my work (after endless love-hate relationship) with asp.NET...

I hope now i can help my team members... so that we will perfectly meet the deadlines...haisss...FYP FYP...its killing me...and to think that I have to face the second FYP next semester... ya allahhh...~~~~ tak sangggguupppp.

{♥} 6:36 AM{♥}

Sunday, June 25, 2006

i MIsss my BUsyyyuuuukkkk~

hahahahhahahahahahahahha
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(he's coming back dis week for a one week holidays...which will not be counted as a holiday to me cos,he'll be spending his holidays working..)

{♥} 7:31 PM{♥}

Friday, June 23, 2006

its very boring se..~!
i was supposed to go to family chalet today..supposed to join the otherrrsss kat sane!!

tapi mak ar ni taknak gi mlm ni~!! bingit se..
and because everybody is already there.......
Abg poad asked me to accompany her tonite at home...
hahahaa..geram tau..
mentang2 im the youngest...so i haf to stay home tonite...

i know her underlying reason for not wanting to stay ovrnite tonite.... :

let me tell u: its because she wants to watch tv ler...kat chalet kan byk org...haha...cannot watch her favourite show wat...

hahaha....i know her sooooooo weellll...!!!

aniwae....called abg poad just now...and asked him..why me se haf to be the one staying at home...
skali she answered at the background~ " takpayah lar....aku bole stay rumah sendiri....im sooo tahhyyyeeeerrrddddd (tired) today.." -bedek se....pffttt~!

Haha.. when she's like that.....we called her " mak champion~ Mak champion...~ (which means mak eksen..~ mak eksen) HAHAHA.....

Mak "champion" will also mean in other words " ya-ya-we-know-we-haf-to-listen-to-u-cos-u-are-so-stubborn-and-u-want-us-to-follow-what-u-say-."

HAHAHAAHA...she is sooo funni...soo the geram..kkekekekekeekkekeke

{♥} 5:58 AM{♥}

Sunday, June 18, 2006

oh gosh..i cant believe it...secara taksengaja...I am one of the millionss of people around the world..watching the world cup...HAHA.....
eh realli lar...syiok ok...
and more excitement when you choose to support the 'underdogs'...yeabahhhh...~

ok...recapppp yesterday's one...cos...its the most recent..Iran Vs. Portugal...DUHHhh....irritating...Cristiano ronaldo was suchh a show off ek..its time he realised that its no time to show off skills in the match...dis is no advertisement se.
Iran plak..haisss...i rest my case.

and and and..
Ghana was superb lar yesterday..Ghana Vs Czech Rep. ..
and I sleeep smiling from ear to ear...

rabak oi aku...sampai telajak subuh dibuatnye..i woke up dis morning...onli to hear the most GREATEST sarcasm from my MUM.(sape lagi se) on sunday morning yg mulia..
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SHe was saying..."GOAL! GOAL! GOal!...TGk Bola Sampai Pagi...SuBuh TelaJak...GOAL!" pantat betul...hahaha....mak mak...kelakar sungguh mak aku sorang ni...

oh gosh..and rite now.... I MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH MY BUSYUK GIGI BESAARRRR!!!!!!!haissssssssssssssssssssssss!!

{♥} 7:00 AM{♥}

Thursday, June 15, 2006

im a bit crazee lar...

and im having a low- self-esteem syndrome right now.....these days.....
im ugly....i dun look good in pixxies...and dun look good in any clothes....

why..why...why...........!!!!!!!!
and i also feel that I lacked attention from him....
i keep asking myself...why........

haisss.....help help help.
*sob sob*

{♥} 3:11 AM{♥}

I N.I.D M.I.R.A.C.L.E T.O H.A.P.P.E.N...................

{♥} 2:25 AM{♥}

Monday, June 12, 2006

It has always been a lonely journey..
But still...u are vividly in mind...

I tried so many times....
Hating u....and blaming myself for all the uncertains...
Why am I so Stupid...?
To still be standing here...

It has never been a pleasant situation.....
and its getting harder as days passed by....
I am scared that I am getting bored....

Will i? Will I? WIll i??

Falling in love is a bliss....but going through its hurdle sumthing I cant afford to face.

{♥} 9:41 AM{♥}

Saturday, June 10, 2006

its been boring these few days...
im in the mood to buy tudungs these few days..dunno why lar..
i think i need new tudung...to make myself more presentable..haha... (quite lame lar..cos actualli its just to waste money)

New tudung.....must come along with new clothes...so i gues..i will be buying clothes too...haha...darn! it must be the Great Singapore Sale syndrome lar! haiya...juz when i tot I am bright enuff not to participate in it...

Or shud I blame mum...HAHA...cos she's the culprit who sparkled up the shopping mood...we went shopping at bugis junction the other day... (I MET NAD!!HELLO NAD!I MISS YOU NAD!)
and spend ......hmm...shall not say..and all we bought was shoes...

MY mum and her HUSH PUPPIES shoes (forever lar itu makcik.).......
if counted....i guess...the amount she spent on her shoesss can help me add up to my saving for my future wedding day...CHEHHH...perasaaan lar pulak.

aiyoo..did i just said...my wedding'? tak tau malu se aku..keke...

ok forget it...let me rephrase, " if counted....i guess...the amount she spent on her shoesss can help me add up to my saving for my further education.." (making a note to myself that it was mum all along who gave me money for my education..HAHAHA)

haha...
im giving a pat on my own shoulder (eh..miracle ek.)
cos my relationship with the programming language ASP.NET is getting better...baik ar!!!!
its not that I am being complacent with myself, but its just that this little achivement is making me feel good (cos it had always been a love-hate situation with programming since last year)...and even though its 2 a.m in the morning and my laptop is looking at me..
but admist all the 'self-patting' and good progress im making...hmm...i.still.nid.guidance..

{♥} 1:47 AM{♥}

Sunday, June 04, 2006

knock knock..~~
wat am i doing in this hour now...at 1 am...2 am...im still looking at ASP.net...
haha....
I felt the excitement just now...when i finally managed to make the datagrid appears!!! oh my gosh!!!! it feelsss sooo freakingggg good....and its all thanks to endless trials...and helps from team members...love ya!!

YEy!! now can at least show to my supervisor that I am not a bad leader afterall..wakaka..(not that I want to be aniway..duh)

hey realli lar..programming sucks ok...haiss.....but do i haf a choice not to do it?? NOT!
im enduring it now...i hope more success to come...! but mesti after endless,brain-cracking tries..

yesterday....I even dream of the datagrid and asp.net in my dreams...sheesh...! how bad can it be se.

{♥} 10:24 AM{♥}

I miss u soo the very muchhhhhh............haisss..haisss...i never like long distance relationship....not even once..

{♥} 8:25 AM{♥}

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Im soo tired...and everyone around me is complaining they are tired and blabla...
haiss..im dying to get a shoe from the superb 'shoemaker'..but no size lar..how se..so sad...
haiss..ape nak buat...wa punya kaki besar lar..keke..

Going batam nex week with kiki and arie with kakinda...gerek ar...gi batam....anyway...hope that we gerls are not mistaken for wanting to provide 'service' there...al maklumlar....batam ni kannn....ehem ehem...

watever lar ek....
I cant wait for today to end...after that I can rilek2 one corner at home...with my feveret bantal...my nick in msn is : " Sleepy + Boring = Bolster at home"
haha....

here are some pictures..which was supposed to be uploaded last week and on monday..but didnt do it lar..too lazy...wat more can i say..

dis one masa majlis kawen ruwaida's kak sedara....sederhana wedding..i loike!! i wore maroon dat day...i think it kind of suit me lar...entah lar ek...

me and the ketua marhaban..lead singer oiii...~ jgn main main ni..

ya allah..step manja lar pulak tangan aku taruk tpi waida gitu..ish..

bon voyage waida to UIA soon.

si ketua marhaban ni....muke dalam gmbar,angle nya mesti nak lebih.

and last monday my frenster fren came to skool...to lepak2 and haf a tour at RP..so,we took pixx..but i shall upload a bit onli lar..since she very shy..Blargh.

ehem ehem....singles and availables gerlsss......

{♥} 6:54 PM{♥}