** If I am not Meant to live with you** tell me now than Im wasTing my**Lifetime on You

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Mak is getting freaking fuunni sia..
lame and all....but still...we cant avoid her LOUD thundering powerful voice....even when she speaks to u....she demand full attention..in her funni ways.....and always,I make fun of it...haha..
but when she's angry....I'll ignore her...and just smile at her..haha....
and when she's bored and fed up with me...cos i dun listen to her..i'll juz smile and pinch pinch her..

aniwae....i dunno why la...this mother of mine..i think she got issues with handphone...
let me tell u a story......

Mak brought our cordless house phone...which she mistakenly thought was her nokia handphone, in her jualan bag..all the way to her stall...and she didnt even realised it....when she dialed our house number..and skali when she thought sooo hard..why she cant get thru our house number,,,then she realised that...HEY.....ITS MY HOUSE PHONE LA>......

wat a joke sia mak!!haha

and last week...was another phone joke..or shud i say...call joke...

she wanted to call me...and she still believed till today..at this moment..that she positively dialled my number...

after she dialled that day..without assalamualaikum(assuming that it was me she called)..

she talked like a machine gun : " Eh salbiah....da pukol berapa ni...masih tidur lagi...!!(ignoring the person's explanation)kau pegi talipon kan kak sal suruh dia beli daun kari kat pasar..bawak datang kantin sini....."

and the person said ," kak menah eh tu? Ni bini ridin blok 11....kak menah salah talipon ni...."

[u see...mak's voice is exceptionally unique...and her voice is recognised by many people..even if we cant see the face,, we can know the voice..so does this makcik at blk 11.
Mak always called her to order kuih. so mak's voice is obviously recognised by her.]

ASTAGFIRULLAH.....
veri paiseh leh...
but i laughed like nobody business ok when I knew about it.....HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAA....

Lesson to be learned : OPEN UR EYES WIDE ENOUGH TO SEE WAT NUMBER UR DIALLING.

my mum...my old...funni...mum....

{♥} 7:26 AM{♥}

Saturday, August 26, 2006

eaten too much rice today...haisss....
Langgar the rules oredi..
and drank too much icy cold waters.. (suppose to be a big NO NO)

oh well..rules are meant to be broken...

I want to go Genting with the rest!!!
ouhz...realli badly..i need a holiday...and im super duper excited to go genting with them..

but I havent tell noreen la our plan..hehe....hope she willl tag along...that "sis-in-law" of mine..hehehehehee

i love dis pic...its quite dark..but still...so cute la that little husma..hehe.aniwae...dis is the wallpaper for fairul's hp...i gues, it irresistable for him not to put this pic....wakaka.

{♥} 1:11 AM{♥}

Thursday, August 24, 2006

went for a berfday celebration( fairul's dad berfday)
the reason why im there celebrating togther with fairul's family is because --> hey, im invited la!

noreen is such a sweet giler gerl...she asked me along...hehe.aniwae...she belanja that day..
so all together, there's 17 of us eating at al-amin bukit timah..nice meal i had..
me , noreen , fairul, rabitah shared one table...

at their house..

still at their house..she's getting skinnier..keke....and me? "bloooming like a freaking fat flower" gosh!but im prettier...hahaha

{♥} 3:11 AM{♥}

i was suppose to blog two days ago...but i guess..my hands are too lazy to type anything...
aniwae.....
ive been enjoying every bit of the holidays...syiokkkkadelic, i tell u!
and guess la how i spent my quality time dis holiday..haha...yeah, cleaning up the house..

see, im practically a part time maid at home...because...personally, I cannot breath in messsy rooms...haha.a.nd the hand will itch to take the broom and vrooomm vrooomm vrooom..haha.
and that clorox bottle, needs a replacement every 2-3 weeks because, im the reason it empties most of the time...

clorox works fantastically fast and it makes the tiles in the bathroom...Woohoo~ WHITE!
i like..!!
yeah..mum is happy that Im back as a maid at home..(cos its my holiday mah.so i get to spend most of the time at home.)
and everybody is happy that I am mostly at home, becos they know that the house will be kept neat and clean.yerp!!

but since Im not paid to do the routine everyday, there were times, I totally chucked the broom +mop plus watever tools is needed for housecleaning to the corner...
hey...i have my lazy days too la.

{♥} 2:49 AM{♥}

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Ive jus changed a new layout...purposely chose a dull colours..maybe to suit my mood these days...
cold and gloomy...(sort of la)
quite cute in some ways... but dunno wat say u la...aniwae...whu cares...its my blog.haha..

Today was the project presentation day...and alhamdulilah...despite some last minute work...everything worked out fine......i guess....i can breath some air now....and wait for the next FYp...shuckksss!

He said he's going to cum back here dis friday....because he misses me soo much..hmm...shud be la...cos,ive refrained myself from calling or msging him due to my bill.. (which i've always spent most of my salary to it..bloody idiot..yes, i know i am.)
aniwae...dats sweet..he's always been sweet to me....onli under some circumstances, he'll turn into an irritating old man who pissed me...jus like i did to him..wahahha....

wat else to blog about tonite..??

nothing special happened here....just that...ive not been eating rice for the past 2 days...cost Ive to lose some weight..im starting to look ugly..and HELL NO...i wont let that happen...

and oh ya....theres a fc*&#ing "big hole" in my pocket for this 2 weeks....iffff...u know wat i mean la....
--> in a much simpler words...it shall be....Aku nga pokai...hahahha...

ok la watever...im bored..and is always bored......so...talk to me if ur in msn...haha...

{♥} 9:41 AM{♥}

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

It was nice last week...all were at teban...a small gathering for my own family..haha..
its kind of funiee.....to see my mum's grandchildren....mcm buah karem...or maybe...mcm chess...or black and white..keke....
but cute la....

miss these kids...hais..when is my turn to haf kids..??nyehehehe.......no la ..kidddingg je..

latest edition from our famili -haziq hydrali

faramir m.f and haziq hydrali

again..faramir m.f and haziq hydrali..vavava..hahah

cute riteee??!!

faramir and haziq have similarities....they drool at the sight of food.hahaha...
yeah..they'll grow to be jus like our present members of the family...big frame...big big big.hahaha

{♥} 12:28 AM{♥}

"aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah...dalam tidurmu...
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg mungkin bisa kau rindu... " -dealova.

been mushy and emotional these few days...
how can I not be.... [i suck!]

its been 3 weeks since I last contacted him...firstly because I dun wish my bill to shoot up high to the sky...
and secondly, I am dealing with my own confusion and feelings.... [ and i haf the cheek to say this after 5 years together...what was i thinking]
aniwae...dun blame me..cos afterall, I am still a woman..full of insecurities, emotional at times..but hey, managed to be cool most of the time...nyehehehe

{♥} 12:16 AM{♥}

Thursday, August 10, 2006

im sad....sad sad sad...
im confused....confused..confused...
im hopeless...hopeless..hopeless..

what is it im feeling rite now???????????

am i getting bored?? or maybe im juz being too emotional....

i dunnnooo..and why in the world am i feeling soo ugly nowdays.....why why why.....
everything I wear....doesnt seem rite to my eyes...everything i say...feels wrong...evey food i put in my mouth,feels like sinful indulgence........

and this song..it makes my heart...haiss...so sad...so emotional....so.....haissss..
fairul...why are u doing this to me...
please come home and get things rite for me.

{♥} 9:38 PM{♥}

and this song..it makes my heart...haiss...so sad...so emotional....so.....haissss..
fairul...why are u doing this to me...
please come home and get things rite for me.

{♥} 9:38 PM{♥}

Monday, August 07, 2006

its sickening la....
when frens get married..without inviting their frens...
its not that we demand to be invited or watsoever..
but its just one of the basic things we all need to know..

aniwae....
why am i not inspired to get married...when its the kawen kawen season rite now?HAHA...
ouhzzz.... i know i know..!!
it because.... We dun haf money to get married...HAHAHAHA

so wat if im 21...and he is 25?
still young rite? ya..i gues so.hahahhaa....

unless anyone want to sponsor us la..thats a different story.

{♥} 7:12 PM{♥}

Friday, August 04, 2006

i want to be involve again in mosque activities or watever community servicesss/activitiess....

anibody...please email me at anak_dalap@hotmail.com...or simply add me at msn..or those who know my hp number...please msg me..

.i will get back to u as soon as possible..

{♥} 3:55 AM{♥}

hello again...again and again..
huahaha....

im torn into two rite now..between staying or leave and join the other for next semester...
haiss..
its sumthing i cant decide...or maybe....i can decide...but its hard for me to say it to the team...im sucha complicated woman..yeah..

been eating like a mad woman nowdays......lots of things on my mind...haiss..all the kilos i lose 2 months ago...such a waste..felt ugly now...but thanx for the compliments by classmate..haha...never tot they/he wud think i am ............... hehe... *blush blush like nobody business*

i know myself..sumtimes i get soo low self-esteem..i cudnt find the answer to why..and there are times..i feel confident...with wat i wear..what I feel..what i think..blablabla...

ok..dis is a boring and typical girlish post..haha..but i am a gerl wat..!keke

i felt sorry for all the things i've said to fairul....he sucha dearrrr....oh gosh...good guy like him..hais..he basically put up with me and all my theory-nonsense seh...wow...syabas fairul!

i just realised that......

RAMADHAN IS COMING>...........................hip hip hurray!!

{♥} 3:42 AM{♥}

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Im so sorry for my dear fren...her stories...juz scare me a lot...I dunno....Im confused...i tried fitting in her situation...oh gosh...must be such a miserable life..

it sumhow changed the way i view "marriage".
what is marriage all about?? again i ask...isit all juz because of SEX? am i being too open here? well...i dun care...because this is reality...

I try my very best not to even think of marriage...but sumtimes..i cant help it..maybe because...im already with fairul for a very long time...and that im in my twentys..and blabla..

but...how do we know we are mentally prepared.....what if thinks cum tumbling down after one year....ive seen that...."manis setahun...pahit selamanya..."

yeah...life isnt that simple...even though we all would like to keep it simple.

I messaged him..telling him that i cancelled all the engagement-mariage thingy plan near the future....he convinced me enuff...but im not convinced...quite stubborn eh..well, he's not working full time yet..so,there's nothing to prove..

i dun wan to think about it as long as I can....but till when?? i duno...

changed my nick in msn to --> "U wun get poor without love.."
haha..irrational to u?? not to me certainly.

{♥} 11:57 PM{♥}