** If I am not Meant to live with you** tell me now than Im wasTing my**Lifetime on You
Sunday, May 28, 2006
I am soo tired.... and I juz want the skool hols to come faster than ever.. Republic poly is soo smart ...cos,knowing that this is the last week of skool before the June Holidays...they lined up a string Of tests for us... wow...good job eh..!
thanx for spoiling my semangat to ponteng skola.
hmph!
ouh...aniway..i was on the way to skool dis morning..and I laughed like hell..alone in the mrt...cos,i suddenly teringat fairul's face...hehe...the presence of him in my mind can set me to laughing mode all the way..haha...my one and onli selenge bacinz.
{♥} 8:32 PM{♥}
I am soo tired.... and I juz want the skool hols to come faster than ever.. Republic poly is soo smart ...cos,knowing that this is the last week of skool before the June Holidays...they lined up a string Of tests for us... wow...good job eh..!
thanx for spoiling my semangat to ponteng skola.
hmph!
ouh...aniway..i was on the way to skool dis morning..and I laughed like hell..alone in the mrt...cos,i suddenly teringat fairul's face...hehe...the presence of him in my mind can set me to laughing mode all the way..haha...my one and onli selenge bacinz.
{♥} 8:32 PM{♥}
Saturday, May 27, 2006
yesterday was fun cos anek drove and send me home ....reached home around 11 30 agaknye... hehe..Thanx peeps..~!
was dead beat...so faster faster (ape je ek bahasa) took a bathe and sleep.... managed to find my hp in the dark and msged my busyuk....si gigi besar tu...hahaha.
So cute lar him.........really....hehe..i like...AND WHY THE FKCU is everyone around me getting married...??!ape saje je.
Final year project is getting on my nerves sumtimes...i shall not elaborate it here..
My fren jus told me that her classmate in SP gets an 'AWARD WINNING' (sori lar,im juz exaggerating.) gpa of 4.... haissssssssss......
why lar it wasnt me whu gets that kind of gpa....and oh ya....UT's and all the 4 modules are getting harder and harder..................
im declaring again that I-HATE-FINANCIAL-ACCOUNTING.....
{♥} 6:51 AM{♥}
Thursday, May 25, 2006
Hepi berfday Syahirah.......
Sori didnt get any prezzie for ya...keke
{♥} 6:54 AM{♥}
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
I realised that.........
every sentence u spoke to me....
there will always and forever be....sayang....so tender..so affectionate.....since 5 years ago.. ...........
while my affectionate werds will all gone when Im crazily mad at u...all the way....angry...angry...
I miss u fairul.. Ur juz one in a million..
tsk tsk...... *so sad*
{♥} 3:46 AM{♥}
Sunday, May 21, 2006
i 100% agree with this song...please listen...haissss...
the trouble with love is
{♥} 9:53 PM{♥}
Syifaa yusra is going syria... I wish u the best of luck dear..... and there was a small gathering at my house yesterday... padahal sipak nak gi syria...gathering buat kat umah aku..hahaha... aniwae..i dun mind at all.
Im so happy u were given a chance to pursue there... I wish it was me who was given the same chance.... And I will leave for a moment...these stressful..under-pressure life here..
Im sick of thinking and worrying about my future...
Im sick of watching our Malay community in Singapore.... With all the tatooes...dyed blonde hair...skimpy clothes..night-life.. Masyallah.... Even worse than a non-muslim......
I dun understand....why do I have to see all these...why......why... And why...I have to wait for my love...waited so long....so long........and i cant even see the ending to all the waitings... why why why.. i Pondered.....I wondered...I asked myself...... Maybe Allah wants to test me....
its been nearly 24 hours i didnt msg baby...fighting back my tears.... I miss him soo much.. Bahhhhh~! watever lar.
{♥} 6:46 PM{♥}
Friday, May 19, 2006
Consumer psychology is one hell of a lesson... its interesting...but complex...jus like the human brain.. hehe.....
Its crazeee...but my eyes were like half shut at the first 20 mins of lesson...wakkaa... but yeah...fight fight fight the setan bertenggek at my eyes.....and yeahhh~ managed to wake my brain and my eyes.....
and now...here I am...in class....the last few in class....like an ardent fan of some rock star.. class ended late today..haiss.. sooo tired.. and after this....meeting for final year project with my team... after that... go to work at 7pm.. GOSH.............. I AM SOOOOOOO TIREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD..
i am dreaming of my room at home...with the fan full-blast,and my nice empuk pillow... haiisssss.... haisss.. haiss..
life is not getting any better eh....
{♥} 12:02 AM{♥}
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
its heart-wrenching thinking of how much I miss you... I- Miss - You....i know its juz words..and that it wont make the situation any better.. but i still choose to say I - Miss - You over and over again...
I-Miss-You, wont make u fly to me... I-Miss-You, wont stop me from feeling any better... I-Miss-You... I-Miss-You... I-Miss-You....
Haha...patience and the burning love for u...is what keeps me strong..and u too..baby..i love u...
{♥} 6:46 PM{♥}
Monday, May 15, 2006
its been a smooth sailing for me all these years..and onli little little problems that came along...little little problems like not having enough money to buy this and that... how my expenses increased like nobody business due to uncontrollable spending..haha.
But one problem..which doesnt seem like a big problem...problem which occupies me most of the time...or maybe, all the time...is how my future is going to be like..
my future.., with fairul painted on it...with lovely kids blessed with beautiful skin and big eyes..a job i will love..a pleasant beautiful house..it doesnt matter big or small..a happy family..the husband that leads the family well...jemaah prayers all the time...reciting quran together...and do fun-tastic stuffs together..
but sumtimes..i ponder,if life permits what we imagine in our dreamland to come true.. How is going to be like...how will things go about...
Ive seen a fair share of life..and it happens a few blocks away frm my home. mum gets soo emotional wen talked about the 2 kids..they were innocent..and its not fair for them to face all this....its entirely not their fault...
2 kids(najmuddin and nasruddin)..with father roaming around,nowhere to be found..and a mother,which treats them like the 2 kids are not important to her...to and fro to the 'hotel' or wat we know as DRC..beating and scolding them when the kids refuse to go and buy her the ciggaretes she wants..
these 2 kids,holding on tightly to their grandma...a heart-problem,diabetic grandma..which was divorced by her old husband for a batam women.ni lah pakcik tak sedar diri...nak pompuan cantik tapi diri sendiri.....masyallah..
these kids,are innocent..and now,their freaking mum kembali ke rahmatullah..died at one of the estates area..from the highest floor to the ground...its either she was thrown down or she jumped due to excessive hallucination from drugs...
masyallah,...is this the malay community we have in Singapore...
Im part of the community too, and i hope that I can contribute what i can..
{♥} 7:05 PM{♥}
Saturday, May 13, 2006
Kak sal brought our new family members today..haha...Mohd haziq...itam sikit...ikot bapak lar katekan..hehe..my bro in law is an indian(so what kan..)..keke...
HAZIQQ the giant with the small baby...thats my bro...yeah..big BIG bro after 30 mins...da kene tembak...wakaka...buruk se..with the long hair..dunno lar wen he want to cut.he didnt know of cos..i took dis pic. and this is....HAHA...my leg and mum's hand with Haziq mitten on it..keke..ya lar..i put it on her fingers...and took picture.. she malas nak layan me...so...she keep on watching tv..while i did lots of things with her hand..hehe.. mak mak
and i said ," mak angkat ur fingers mcm gini...ahh~ k..stay stay..org nak amek gmabar ni.."WAKAKAKA...gerek lar u mother.
{♥} 7:16 AM{♥}
i juz wanna share some pics.. haha...dis was taken in april... dats my forever funni mum..she can be a super nagger sumtimes.duh! family~with cik man...my kakak indah is in that orange suit. again..same tak me and my sis?hahaha. Abby and mohd amir.dun say i put blusher..cos i dun wear blusher..sumpah.haha/ mak and wakyong...aiyoo...ni makcik dua...hais.haha my all time feveret...MD FARAMIR...hehe...my beloved second nephew. he's big lar for a baby his age..ape nak buat...ikot baka lar beb..hehe..
{♥} 6:52 AM{♥}
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
i dunno...but it hurts so much.... after months u are always there...around me..wenever i need u..
now....tadaaaaaa~ its different.haisss...relax salbiah.....keep urself busy..keep urself busy... ya...i pLANNED TO MAKE MYSELF BUSY.......
aniwae...went geylang to meet my frenster fren..walk walk...bought a maroon tudung...and not forgetting..the esentials for every gerls....JAMU...woohoo..
and guez whu i bump into.. its nor mohd...hahahah...he's fatter now...more meat i gues...hati ada senang ka.kekeke.. well,..its good to know that he still recognise me..the way i recognise him...how time flies..and how people change through time..... skinny people become more meatier (got such terms or not?)...snob people get snobbier(haha)..single people gets attached...and sum even will be getting married ahead of me...fcuk!(oops...mind the language.) haiss...how life is not fair..watever lar eh.
{♥} 6:55 AM{♥}
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
i wish i can stay in house today... i dun wish to go out aniwhere.... but i just cant...cos i got project meeting with my supervisor at skool... dis sucks...FYP is eating my leisure time..and my off day... im sooo .... haiss...i juz dunno wat to say..
i cant take it animore.... he's leaving again.... can i endure another 6 months? if i waited 3 years while he's away...waiting...waiting....can i wait another 6 months? * asking myself...
i cant take it animore....its painful....parting is painful.. in any means.....parting is always painful...parting with frens...parting with family...parting with lovers...parting with ur pet...parting with ur valuable belongings..
eh? did i just cried?..oh no.
Allah..i need ur guidance....soo much...
{♥} 4:36 PM{♥}
Monday, May 01, 2006
im in no mood to do werk today.. i feel like sleeping in this full-blasted airconditioned room..
haisss.. baby's going away nex week.. da jadi janda aku..wakaka...or in a more understandable sentence, i'll be left alone again....missing him as days passes me by..
ape lar nak jadi...why is it like dis...i cant stand it..but i wasnt given a choice..its gonna be hard for me to adapt when he goes back again to selangor.and dis cycle will never stop until HE HIMSELF STOPS going back there....
Shit...i just hate it... sumtimes....feeels like giving up....
wallahu'alam.
{♥} 9:26 PM{♥}
im in no mood to do werk today.. i feel like sleeping in this full-blasted airconditioned room..
haisss.. baby's going away nex week.. da jadi janda aku..wakaka...or in a more understandable sentence, i'll be left alone again....missing him as days passes me by..
ape lar nak jadi...why is it like dis...i cant stand it..but i wasnt given a choice..its gonna be hard for me to adapt when he goes back again to selangor.and dis cycle will never stop until HE HIMSELF STOPS going back there....
Shit...i just hate it... sumtimes....feeels like giving up....
wallahu'alam.
{♥} 9:26 PM{♥}
Missing You ♥
A touch of feminism
22.
Attached.NorFairul.
Waiting for De day to come.
Money is part of everything.
